Chapter 11

 

As soon as he saw Halley Dillinger arrive, Angel got out of the car and followed her up the steps to her apartment.  “Miss, ah…Dr Dillinger, may I speak with you?”

 

He knew straight away that he’d moved too quick and too silently when she jumped and whirled round.  He backed off quickly.

 

“What do you want?”  She asked.  “Have you found it already?”

 

“No, but I need to ask you a few more questions.  Ah, may I?”  He indicated the door with his head.

 

“Oh yes of course.  Come in.”

 

It was always rather a relief when he got the invite like that straight away.  It saved on the awkward doorstep conversations.

 

He knew instantly that the Dex was in the house.  It smelt so bad but the doctor didn’t seem to notice and made some excuse about not taking out the garbage that morning.  “You know how it is when you work all day.”  She said.

 

Angel nodded.  “So, where did you say you worked?”  He asked.

 

“I didn’t.”  She replied.

 

“Why don’t we stop with the games,” He said suddenly.  “I know you have some connection to Wolfram and Hart.  I saw Lindsey McDonald leave here not twenty minutes ago.  He’s dangerous.”

 

“I hired you to do a job.  Sticking your nose in where it’s not wanted wasn’t it.”

 

That remark made him cross, “Lindsey is a dangerous unprincipled, lair, who’d sell his own Grandmother if he thought it would win him a case.  I’ve run him out of town once and I’ll do it again.”

 

Hal didn’t have time to defend her boyfriend because Lindsey burst into the apartment at that moment with Spike hot on his heals.  Spike would have burst into the apartment too but for the invisible barrier that kept all uninvited vampires out.  He leant on it and snarled dangerously.  There was no point in being subtle, the very fact of its existence said what he was.

 

Looking from person to person, Lindsey couldn’t believe his eyes.  There was Angel standing with Hal and he’d sent another vampire to keep the lawyer out of the way.  “Born again!  Hah, very funny!”  He thought.

 

 “Come on in and join the party.”  He said out loud and Spike strode through the door.  “Well lookee here my best girl and my worst enemy.”

 

He dumped himself on the sofa and Halley noticed he was detached and disinterested.  The investigator had accused him of being callous and now he seemed to be living up to that.  She yelled at him, “Don’t you care?  People say such terrible things about you, Lindsey.”

 

Angel looked from person to person.  Spike positively bristled with nervous energy.  He was clearly enjoying the strife.  There was no indication that he possessed a soul of any kind.  Halley was obviously in pain.  Her agony was plain on her face, as she hid nothing.  And Lindsey?  Well he sat impassively, lounging back on the sofa as if nothing could touch him.  Suddenly he had the answer.  “Of course he doesn’t care.”  He said,  “He’s had his soul removed!”

 

Hal was horrified.  The man she loved had been harmed by her work.  Had Reed given Lindsey a Dex?  The Firm was going to destroy them both.  But no, there weren’t enough missing Dexes for her lover to have had one for that long.  An agonising realisation began to dawn on her.  He must have the Dex she’d sent him after.  She’d done this to him.  She’d destroyed him herself.

 

Halley began to cry.  Lindsey didn’t turn a hair even though the woman he loved was in tears in front of his worst enemy and some strange vampire.  “I did this to you!”  She wept, “And I’m so sorry.  So very sorry.”

 

It was heartbreaking for Angel and even Spike could no longer just watch.  He moved towards her and she fell broken, into his arms.  He shushed her, rocking gently as he used to do with Dru.  Gradually the sobs became less.

 

Angel turned to Lindsey and said in scathing tones, “You represent what is evil and you come to represent evil itself.”

 

“Are you saying I’m evil?”  The lawyer’s voice was a cold monotone, “I’m not creating it; it’s there, it’s business.  If it weren’t you’d be out of a job.  You trade in it too, Angel.”

 

Angel ignored him, “Where is the beast, Lindsey?”

 

For a moment, Lindsey McDonald was scared but the fear quickly turned to anger.  “You want to see the Dex I have?  You want to see my soul?”  He opened the door to the spare room and the smell literally drove the two vampires back across the room.  The hideous beast was festering in his offences.  Its face was lined with worry and pain.  It had gnarled hands as if it had done a lifetime of hard labour and yet its body was bloated with excess.  There were pustules of sin erupting from its leathery hide and the whole creature shuffled as if it was very old.

 

“Christ, Lindsey, what a lesson!  What an awful lesson!”  Halley exclaimed.

 

In the Dex, Angel saw his own, suffering soul and he wondered what state Spike’s was in.  In the same way as the Doctor must have somehow created the demon, he had created Spike.

 

The Dex was in a state.  It was as if leprosy and necrotising bacteria were eating it from within.  Disease crept over the hands of the Dex and its fingers dripped blood.  The beast could not control whose sins it absorbed.  Between Lindsey, Angel, Spike and Halley they had aged it faster than even LA itself could.

 

“I loved you too much.”  Hal said shaking her head.  “And now I’m being punished for it.  But you know what?  You loved yourself too much as well and now we are both being punished.”

 

“Give me the Dex.”  Angel said, “I will dispose of it.”

 

Lindsey just stood and placed himself between the vampire and creature.  Hal tried to regain her composure.  She disentangled herself from Spike and moved towards her lover and the beast, “Give it to me, Lindsey.  Then we can start over.  It needn’t be like this, we’ll move away…”

 

“No!  You can’t come near it.  I will deal with the Dex.  If you come for it then it’s over between us.” 

 

“You can’t stop me from seeing my own work!”  She screamed.  She’d never seen him so angry, but she was sure if she could just get him alone, she could get the thing away from him and destroy it.  “This is still fixable.”  She thought.

 

She turned to Angel and said in a low whisper, “Let me deal with this.  You go to the lab and destroy all the rest of the Dexes.”

 

Angel hesitated, glancing towards Lindsey, still furious and cold.  Hal saw his concern, “It’s okay.  I’ll be fine.  Just go quickly.”  She hurriedly scribbled some directions and gave him her swipe card.  “Now go!”

 

With a last look from Angel and a shrug from Spike, they left and Halley was alone with Lindsey and the beast.  She looked at him hard.  Maybe if she appealed to the love inside him.  The love he had so often shown her, “Lindsey, I love you.  You are my inspiration – please!  You are more important to me than the Dex or the Firm.”

 

“Oh don’t be ridiculous!”  Yelled Lindsey, “You have killed my love.  You used it to make me hope and dream now I can’t be bothered with you.  You have no effect on me any more.  I loved you because you were wonderful.  You had genius and intellect and you’ve thrown it all away.”

 

Hal tried to reach out for the Dex.  It was repulsive but if it would follow her, she could get it out of the apartment.

 

“What are you doing Halley?”  Lindsey asked.  His eyes were dead and soulless.  Now she was really afraid and she began to back away.  Lindsey raised the letter opener from the desk and she didn’t have time to turn.  He thrust it into Hal’s chest and blood spurted from the wound.  “I’m good looking, I’m powerful, I’m successful,” each claim was punctuated by a stab, “And you won’t change that.”

 

Hal stumbled and fell with the ferocity of the attack.  She reeled in pain but managed to pull herself to her feet, using the edge of an occasional table.  On it stood an onyx-based lamp.

 

The room swam as she lifted the lamp and for a moment, Lindsey thought he was her target but instead she went for the Dex.  “Look!”  She screamed, “See, I can destroy my art.”  Still in pain from the stab wounds, she began to beat the Dex around the head.  Its blood soon covered her hands and splattered her face, mixing with hers on her blouse and into the wounds themselves.  She struck it repeatedly and the Dex seemed to become less of a monster, its body morphing with each blow.

 

Eventually exhausted she sank into its arms, and with a small whimper, she died.  The Dex looked up at Lindsey briefly.  It was a beautiful creature now and the look it gave him was one of love.  Then it too died and Lindsey was left with his guilt.

 

That final look returned to him everything that had been taken and nausea took a hold.  He retched, bringing up acrid smelling alcohol and bile.  He couldn’t stand the pain of his soul.  His lover was dead at his own hands and his career ruined.  He felt the blackness of despair overwhelm him.

 

As if in a daze, he went to the draw in the desk and took out Halley’s gun.  He checked the chambers methodically and returned calmly to the centre of the room.  He knelt down next to the body of his lover but couldn’t bring himself to touch her.

 

“I don’t know how you stand it Angel.”  He murmured, placed the gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. 

 

 

 

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